I did not sleep the night before as I prayed, thought, and imagined most of the time I lay there. But there was no such thing as “too soon” when it came time for getting him out and in my arms. I was so ready. A million miles beyond ready.
We arrived to the hospital and followed the usual practices of being admitted, prepped, and informed. I fell asleep in my hospital bed and soon I was being woken up and wheeled to the OR. I am a surgical technologist. The OR a passion of mine. I am already a mother - I know somewhat what to expect during this procedure. And yet, the nerves still swarmed me both with excitement and dread of knowing how it feels lying on that table awake and unable to move. I kept my mind on Jesus and prayed for peace and took a lot of slow deep breaths. The CRNA told me he could totally tell I was in the zone and ready to do this thing!
They did my spinal block, soon I was sweating and nauseous. My BP was quite low now and due to the meds administered, this was expected. The CRNA never missed a beat in getting me feeling as comfortable as possible and even became my personal photographer alongside Eric too. At one point my heart did begin to become arrhythmic and was bradying down into the 50s. Nothing too alarming especially given my conditions but I was closely monitored and then God brought it right back to normal range with no other intervention.
Before I knew it I heard a most beautiful whimper that crescendoed into a full out cry and my soul burst and my eyes flooded and my heart soared. They showed me my handsome boy over the clear drape and I was relieved and elated and smitten. He was so round and chunky (for two tall lean lanky parents) measuring in at 8 lbs and 20 1/4 inches. More than a pound bigger than his sister, Ellie at birth. His face was so perfect and his head so round! Instantly, I saw a deep likeness of Eric in Elias’s chin and dimples!!!! Yes! Those dimples I just swoon for on my man are also now on my little man!! He looks more like Eric than Ellie did (who mostly looks like me with Eric’s eyes and nose). I always dreamed that my son would be of the same handsome adorable cuteness that just stops me in my tracks still every day.
Eric was then able to watch Elias be cleaned up and checked out. Eric took a ton of photos for me and then finally, he brought Elias over to me to sit and bond while they finished up on my case. It was magical. I began to speak to him and his little gray eyes opened and slowly shifted towards my voice and he had little smiles…I know, I know - probably just gas, but a smile no less right when Mommy spoke to him! And he listened and recognized this crazy woman who he has been living inside for the past 9 months! The other littler crazy woman spoke to him later in the day and oh how he did most definitely recognize the voice of sister Ellie as well! Who by the way is in love. She is madly in love with her brother and thinks he is her baby personally.
When we were finally able to go home, my parents brought Ellie back to our house and she was excited to see Mommy, Daddy, and her new baby brother, Elias! She brought balloons for Elias and she even got some for herself since she is to be a celebrated and important big sister! She came in the house beaming and elated! She held him as though he were her greatest treasure (and I believe he is!) She sang to him and felt so loved by him when he reached out and would grab her shirt or hand. Our family is so perfectly complete, now! Praise our Heavenly Father, Lord God Almighty!
The little man thus far seems to be cool, calm, chill, patient, and not easily bothered or upset just the same way his daddy is. Hallelujah! Ellie and I are the divas with all the sass and sauce and expressions galore. We needed a calm chill little dude! 😂
The sounds he makes are just so beautiful and precious and melt my heart like butter! He is very alert and already naps better than Ellie ever did. He is strong and soft and oh so sweet!
Welcome to the world, my handsome little man! Now I have two of the best men on earth under one roof with me...and the most precious daughter too!🥰
